Saturday, October 28, 2006

Home

We are home. Katy is in her own bed sleeping. I just hugged the home health care nurse goodbye and she told me that several of her friends are praying too. Our luggage is in the hall and bags of pharmacy supplies need to be put in order, but I wanted to write a message to you.

All of last night I walked around Katy’s hospital room praying. She sat in bed in utter misery with dry heaves and shivers. The lab reports this morning had no answers as to why she had such a horrible night. I waited until 5 AM to call Paul and when I did I found myself saying, “We have to get her out of here!” By noon we had made a plan to bring Katy home. Paul drove to Charlottesville to bring us home, and by 7:30 tonight the new TPNs were delivered to our door by Advanced Homehealth Care. I have discovered what many people with HPS know all too well. Sometimes with the flare-ups the body is in such despair that rest and the comforts of home are the truest healing forces. Once we spoke with the NIH doctor this morning we were satisfied that Katy is physically stable enough to be at home. The rest of the healing process will involve time, quiet, prayer, and love. All of which is better at home. I wish I could say that Katy is in great shape, but I can’t. However, God gave us the tools we need physically and emotionally to handle this, and that is what we will do.

I have had some great times of worship and prayer with Katy over the past three weeks. One night we were quieting down in our hospital room for the night and she quietly asked, “Mom, if you had known how much trouble I would be for you, would you and dad still have wanted me?” There it was, a raw and biting question. It was such an honest question that it caught me by the heart and I felt the sting of it. “Katy, Katy, Katy, what is a family for but to prove the love of God to a watching world?”

16 Responses to “Home”

  1. Davey Says:

    I found myself crying through that last paragraph. I’ve never had experience in adoption, nor do I have children. But Katy’s question reminded me of a question I sometimes ask God:

    “God, You knew how much I trouble I would be for You, why did You still choose me anyway?”

    An answer to that, if I could possibly come up with a correct one, is probably too long to speculate. But, He loves us, no matter how unbelievable it seems sometimes. I am overwhelmed by the love and support shown by the family and the church. I’ve been on the end of support of that kind, even as recently as this past summer.

    May God continue to show you all how to love as perfectly as you are.

  2. Julie Wensley Says:

    Welcome Home! Enjoy your cozy room and peaceful home tonight! I pray you will all get a sweet deep rest.

    We just got back from Danae’s choir concert in Radford. It was beeaauutiful! The concert was called “Our Spiritual Heritage”, so they sang a variety of styles from sacred to “spirituals”. We took her out to Ruby Tuesdays afterward and got caught up on her week. It was a great visit.

    Sleep well. I will talk to you tomorrow. We love you!

    ~Aunt Julie

  3. Delmar Short Says:

    Katy’s heavenly encouragement has been a great blessing to my family and me, and others we know. It is a real blessing to have the privilege of knowing you all. I was reminded of a verse I have on my desk- “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.” I think Katy, like Stephen, Paul, and John, is the sort of person, God would reveal himself to. Please let us know if there is anything we can do.

    (from one of those weird psychiatrists, Del Short)

  4. Bob, Amy, Emily, Meredith and Abby Says:

    I, too, found myself crying thru the last paragraph and thought how sad it would have been for me to never have known Katy! We are all so glad that she became part of your beautiful family. :0)

    And we are so glad that you were able to come home yesterday. I pray that you all had a peaceful night of sleep last night. Home is always better!!

    We love you all. May God bless you richly today.
    Amy (for the Collins)

  5. Aunt Doris Says:

    I, too, took note of that last paragraph. I’ve found the thought entering my mind from time to time, and I’m sure that you and Paul wouldn’t trade your experience and love for Katy for anything. I have yet to meet her, but I am developing a strong love for Katy myself!

    Aunt Doris

  6. Sandy Says:

    That last paragraph had me in tears too. Adopted or not, I think we all have that question in our hearts sometimes.

    I’m glad you are home, and I pray for healing and patience and peace that passes all understanding. Take care.

  7. Heather Kirkwood Says:

    Dido on the last paragraph. I’m not adopted, and I’ve wondered the same thing about my parents. Katy, I hope you get a good rest and know that we’re still here praying for you and rooting for you to get better. Sandy posted a brief update to the HPS adults yahoo group, and I know that there are so many of us who care so much about you - even though we’ve never met. I’m looking forward to being able to trade e-mails again!

  8. Jennifer :-) Says:

    Katy girl–I’m glad you’re home. :-) It truly is the best place to rest and I hope that it strengthens your mind, heart, and body.

    We’re praying for you!!
    Jen :-)

  9. Patricia Says:

    Hi Dawn and Katie Beth:
    Both of you…. rest in the engulfing arms of a loving Father.
    Pancreatitis, in and of itself, can be mean and nasty and has excruciating pain…..and doctors have a difficult time getting a handle on it, even in otherwise healthy individuals. One of our local friends has been in ICU with it for 10 days now. 50% of the chronic cases is among alcoholics but for the other 50%, as our own physician has personally stated to us with a shrug, “there are some things known only to God.”

  10. Kristin Dunker Says:

    Hi All-
    How delightful to hear(read) the word “home” in your last post. It is a place of strength, rejuvenation, peace, comfort, and safety to all of us. I know you are glad to be back there Katy. We will pray that your homecoming will speed your recovery by leaps and bounds!
    Love and a hug,
    ~Kristin

  11. Brooke McGlothlin Says:

    Katie,
    Your precious family loves you so much! And as a mom (although a relatively new one :-) I can tell you that hours and hours of pain can all be washed away with one simple smile that reminds them of why they love you so much. Years of joyous memories remind them daily of how special you are and what a gift your birth has been to their family. Your are so valuable that the precious Son of God died for you. No amount of discomfort can change how loved you are.
    Blessings,
    Brooke McGlothlin

  12. April Lang Says:

    Oh Katy! I write this with tears in my eyes….I am so GLAD you are home! I pray that you will truly begin to heal and be able to get strong again! I love you and miss you!

    April

  13. Mariah La Brie Says:

    Hi Katy,

    I am glad to hear you are home. I am sorry about your sickness and I will continue to pray for you. Give Gideon a kiss for me. He is so cute!

    Love,

    Mariah

  14. Kathy Osorio Says:

    God’s blessings to you tonight, Katy! I pray for your peace, comfort and rest. You may not remember meeting me, but your story and your mom have been a blessing to me from the Lord. May the God of all comfort give you rest at home tonight.

  15. Heather Kirkwood Says:

    I’m just about to go to bed and I had to check in one last time before going to sleep. I’ve spent the day working on HPS fundraisers and HPS conference planning. You know that song Candice and Crystal picked out for the conference theme - “Fron the Beginning” - I went and bought it today and have been listening to it all day as I worked on conference stuff (a little inspiration). And, then I started thinking about you - and it had me in tears. Tears because although this HPS thing can be so tough, so miserable, so frustrating at the same time it’s what has caused me to know so many wonderful people that have blessed my life, such as you (even though we haven’t met yet) and the Sipe twins, and Karen and Sandy and Sheena and so many others you haven’t met yet. Rest well, and get better soon. We continue to pray here in Kansas!

  16. LInda Burk Says:

    Hi … Sweet Katie we are sooo happy to hear you are home..so many happy things are coming your way in the next month with the new baby arriving. It looks like some warm weather this week..enjoy the sunshine …blessings to all, Linda Burk

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