Since Sunday, Katy has suffered in misery. The crushing bone pain had become so terrible that it was hard to witness. Dan and Julie came to help us. We are so thankful that they were here to comfort Katy and give us some time to gather ourselves. I know it was hard for them. Katy’s countenance was filled with agony. I have always wanted to be accurate as I record the medical updates but because Katy was doing so poorly, I avoided writing a post, and put my heart and soul into caring for her and praying. She lost consciousness several times and each time I hoped that in the blankness she would have relief from the agony even for a short time. Last week Aunt Lil had written a prayer for all of us to read on the blog, “Lord Jesus, please help the doctors find the way, or please give Katy another bit of respite in Your arms.” In His mercy toward Katy He gave her both.
First, a friend of ours stopped by after church on Sunday. Along with being a daily reader of katysblog, his daily work in helping people manage pain prompted him to come to see Katy. When he arrived, Katy was in full body spasms, and he watched them carefully. He observed many things during that hour. Taking it all to heart, and seeking counsel from the Lord, he wrote a new prescription for pain management. We prayed together with his family and they all left to carry on their day. Later he went back to his medical books and found references to support the theory that Katy is not absorbing the vitamin D we were giving her. Muscle and bone pain are associated with absorption problems, and that also leads to an imbalance of electrolytes. We plan to research this further.
Then, around three o’clock on Sunday, Katy tried to get up the stairs to her room but passed out and slumped down to the ground. Paul Burton caught her, picked her up and carried her to her room. She went into a deep sleep when he put her to bed so I put a chair beside her to sit with her awhile. After awhile she roused and asked if I could see Jesus sitting with us. “He’s right here” she said, and patted the bed. She talked to Him about her desire to stay with Him and the two of them talked for four hours. I wrote down everything she said. He was giving her instructions for our family as we prepare to care for Katy in the coming years. At one point she said, “Jesus wants you to ask Him things and I will tell you the answers.” I asked if the magnesium was the right thing to do last Sunday night and He said, “Yes.” He warned me to be careful how much I give her but advised looking at the other minerals for balance! Then she asked of Him, “Will I ever be free of pain?” She listened awhile and started to cry. When she could talk again she said, “Jesus told me I will always have pain, but with the right medication, I will be able to control it so I can think and do things, but I will always have it.” Katy continued, “Jesus told me I will walk the road of suffering all my life but many will come to know and believe Him because of it.” He told her that when the pain became unbearable like it had been this past week, He will take her to heaven to show her more. He told her to be reminded that the level of physical pain she feels is like the pain He has in His heart when the gospel is rejected by someone who hears it. That is what made her cry. She had compassion for Him! He took her by the hand to the crystal shores where she described pure white sand, water that shimmered like millions of emeralds, and a whale and dolphin playing together that weren’t afraid of her. I heard descriptions of beauty that stunned me, and her countenance would light up as she was describing it. Several times I breathed my thanksgiving that Katy was feeling no pain and was in total peace. She laughed several times with the children she was able to see again. Conversations with them were as though no time had gone by since the last time she was there. As the time with Jesus came to a close, He told her that when she opened her eyes again the crushing pain would return for two more days and added, “My grace will be sufficient for you.”
Part of the conversation with Jesus had to do with this blog. He said He is using it to “accomplish His purposes.” But He also instructed me to say that this situation our family is in is not to be pitied because His word is clear. The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8: 16-18. Katy’s suffering will bring forth great victories in Heaven and on earth. Many will come to know Him and believe Him.
The plans He has for us in eternity are so delightful it would take your breath away. Please know, if you have ever had any doubt, that God has prepared a place for you in Heaven (for those who believe). Katy has seen some rewards but isn’t allowed to tell anyone else what they are. Eternal rest from our struggles and peace with God are a reality for those who believe He is Who He said He is! What a comforting message for all of us who become weary by the struggles of this life. He is the Son of God, sent by the Father to be nailed to the cross. There He finished the work of Jehovah’s everlasting covenant with Abraham. And there on Calvary made a new covenant by His own blood. By simply believing that He died for us lost and hopeless sinners, we will be showered with His affection and blessings the moment we are home with Him. He redeems the vilest acts committed against us, and those we have committed. Any physical, emotional, or spiritual suffering, will all be redeemed by the One Who loves us and longs to heal us forever. He has treasure vast beyond measure in Heaven, and is longing to restore to us everything we have ever had to give up on this earth, for His sake. No matter what we are suffering here on this earth, it is temporary. It will be worth it all when we see Jesus.
UPDATE: WEDNESDAY NIGHT 9:00p.m.
Katy’s Remicade infusion went very well. It was not a difficult thing for her. In fact, she slept most of the afternoon in a comfortable room where she was monitored every fifteen minutes for any sign of an allergic reaction. We went to the hospital after lunch and arrived back home at 8:00p.m. We are planning on turning in early tonight. Praise God from Whom all blessings flow!Comments: