Wednesday, April 04, 2007

Sweet Solace from Heaven

Since Sunday, Katy has suffered in misery. The crushing bone pain had become so terrible that it was hard to witness. Dan and Julie came to help us. We are so thankful that they were here to comfort Katy and give us some time to gather ourselves. I know it was hard for them. Katy’s countenance was filled with agony. I have always wanted to be accurate as I record the medical updates but because Katy was doing so poorly, I avoided writing a post, and put my heart and soul into caring for her and praying. She lost consciousness several times and each time I hoped that in the blankness she would have relief from the agony even for a short time. Last week Aunt Lil had written a prayer for all of us to read on the blog, “Lord Jesus, please help the doctors find the way, or please give Katy another bit of respite in Your arms.” In His mercy toward Katy He gave her both.

First, a friend of ours stopped by after church on Sunday. Along with being a daily reader of katysblog, his daily work in helping people manage pain prompted him to come to see Katy. When he arrived, Katy was in full body spasms, and he watched them carefully. He observed many things during that hour. Taking it all to heart, and seeking counsel from the Lord, he wrote a new prescription for pain management. We prayed together with his family and they all left to carry on their day. Later he went back to his medical books and found references to support the theory that Katy is not absorbing the vitamin D we were giving her. Muscle and bone pain are associated with absorption problems, and that also leads to an imbalance of electrolytes. We plan to research this further.

Then, around three o’clock on Sunday, Katy tried to get up the stairs to her room but passed out and slumped down to the ground. Paul Burton caught her, picked her up and carried her to her room. She went into a deep sleep when he put her to bed so I put a chair beside her to sit with her awhile. After awhile she roused and asked if I could see Jesus sitting with us. “He’s right here” she said, and patted the bed. She talked to Him about her desire to stay with Him and the two of them talked for four hours. I wrote down everything she said. He was giving her instructions for our family as we prepare to care for Katy in the coming years. At one point she said, “Jesus wants you to ask Him things and I will tell you the answers.” I asked if the magnesium was the right thing to do last Sunday night and He said, “Yes.” He warned me to be careful how much I give her but advised looking at the other minerals for balance! Then she asked of Him, “Will I ever be free of pain?” She listened awhile and started to cry. When she could talk again she said, “Jesus told me I will always have pain, but with the right medication, I will be able to control it so I can think and do things, but I will always have it.” Katy continued, “Jesus told me I will walk the road of suffering all my life but many will come to know and believe Him because of it.” He told her that when the pain became unbearable like it had been this past week, He will take her to heaven to show her more. He told her to be reminded that the level of physical pain she feels is like the pain He has in His heart when the gospel is rejected by someone who hears it. That is what made her cry. She had compassion for Him! He took her by the hand to the crystal shores where she described pure white sand, water that shimmered like millions of emeralds, and a whale and dolphin playing together that weren’t afraid of her. I heard descriptions of beauty that stunned me, and her countenance would light up as she was describing it. Several times I breathed my thanksgiving that Katy was feeling no pain and was in total peace. She laughed several times with the children she was able to see again. Conversations with them were as though no time had gone by since the last time she was there. As the time with Jesus came to a close, He told her that when she opened her eyes again the crushing pain would return for two more days and added, “My grace will be sufficient for you.”

Part of the conversation with Jesus had to do with this blog. He said He is using it to “accomplish His purposes.” But He also instructed me to say that this situation our family is in is not to be pitied because His word is clear. The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us. Romans 8: 16-18. Katy’s suffering will bring forth great victories in Heaven and on earth. Many will come to know Him and believe Him.

The plans He has for us in eternity are so delightful it would take your breath away. Please know, if you have ever had any doubt, that God has prepared a place for you in Heaven (for those who believe). Katy has seen some rewards but isn’t allowed to tell anyone else what they are. Eternal rest from our struggles and peace with God are a reality for those who believe He is Who He said He is! What a comforting message for all of us who become weary by the struggles of this life. He is the Son of God, sent by the Father to be nailed to the cross. There He finished the work of Jehovah’s everlasting covenant with Abraham. And there on Calvary made a new covenant by His own blood. By simply believing that He died for us lost and hopeless sinners, we will be showered with His affection and blessings the moment we are home with Him. He redeems the vilest acts committed against us, and those we have committed. Any physical, emotional, or spiritual suffering, will all be redeemed by the One Who loves us and longs to heal us forever. He has treasure vast beyond measure in Heaven, and is longing to restore to us everything we have ever had to give up on this earth, for His sake. No matter what we are suffering here on this earth, it is temporary. It will be worth it all when we see Jesus.

UPDATE: WEDNESDAY NIGHT 9:00p.m.

Katy’s Remicade infusion went very well. It was not a difficult thing for her. In fact, she slept most of the afternoon in a comfortable room where she was monitored every fifteen minutes for any sign of an allergic reaction. We went to the hospital after lunch and arrived back home at 8:00p.m. We are planning on turning in early tonight. Praise God from Whom all blessings flow!

Comments:
  1. Jennifer S. :-) Says:

    Katy,
    This post almost made me cry. I’m not going through half of the things that you are, but I still have my little battles. How encouraging to be reminded again that they are for our good. I’ll continue to pray for the pain management and that the Remicaide treatments will help. Thank you for sharing your special time with us. :-)
    Love and prayers,
    Jen :-)

  2. Doris Harriff Says:

    It almost made me cry, too. Katy, I will always hold you up in prayer, and ask the Lord to help you with pain management. I have seen His name glorified through your life, and I’m sure I will continue to see this. May Jesus keep you always in His loving arms!

    Aunt Doris

  3. Aleah Yunger Says:

    I stand as a witness to what Christ told you — this blog is changing lives and God is using this to bring people to Himself. Katy, you and your family are a constant example I use for people in times of struggle and in times of pain. You are the true example of a light - a witness - a testament to God’s grace and provision. And yet you are in constant pain… to a world that doesn’t understand the Truth of the Gospel and who struggle with questions about a God that can allow pain and suffering in His world, you shed light on the grace that is actually drawn up in all suffering.

    Psalm 51:8, 10 Let me hear joy and gladness; LET THE BONES THAT YOU HAVE BROKEN REJOICE. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.

    God is faithful to break us down… for the purpose of building us up in the right spirit. You are a witness to that! Amazing… I cannot wait to share this with my world.

  4. Lillian Oliveira Says:

    Well, Katy, dear, the others “almost cried” and I cried and am still blinking back tears! I had just finished reading it the first time when our church secretary called and asked if I had read “Katy’sBlog”. I didn’t even know she was following it! I told her through my tears, I’m reading it now. Thank you, Jesus! Oh, thank you for answering that plea that came from deep in my heart! Aleah quoted that verse from Psalms 51:8. I wonder if you have heard a shepherd’s clarification of it. Some applies to you, some doesn’t. He said that when there was a little lamb that kept going astray, and leading others into trouble, the shepherd would finally break the front leg bones. Then he would tenderly bind the legs up (they heal so rapidly in lambs or children) and he would carry the little lamb in His bosom all the time. He would lay it down in the best patches of sweet grass to eat, take it to the cool, clear water to drink, sleep with it nestled against him. When the lamb’s legs were healed, it so dearly loved the shepherd who had taken care of it with love, that it stuck close beside him and didn’t wander into trouble ever again. You have not gone astray, but He has a HIGHER purpose in your crushing, the HIGHEST purpose of all - to bring others to Jesus. And He holds you always in His arms. He had to crush my bones for the other reason, and now I so dearly love Him!

    You know, Lord Jesus, it was such an encouragement for You to answer that simple prayer of mine so wonderfully, as you know how I am so concerned for Heather, that I am teaching your Word, and praying that she will believe. You know the prayer I prayed yesterday, binding the Satanic powers that have come from generations of rebels and non-believers in her family, and the reistance I felt, but Your Victory in the end. Then she didn’t come to her lesson last night. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for letting me know what suffering it causes you to be rejected - much more than what I can feel. Please let everyone who reads this pray a pray for Heather, that she will indeed come to the Easter service as she has promised, and, OH, Father, that she may be given the will and the faith to believe!

    And I pray for dear Katy, for Dawn and Paul and Paul Burton, Colin and Jennifer, Dan and Julie, as they bear the burden of the pain close up. May your grace be MORE than sufficient today. May the JOY of Heaven touch each one of them, I pray, Father, in the blessed Name of Jesus, Son of God, Saviour.

    Dear me, there’s a PILE of wet kleenex by my computer. I love you all.

    Aunt Lil

  5. andrea russell Says:

    Yes this is sad to read. But it is uplifting to us. And I agree with everyone, that this blog draws us very close to Jesus. You are a example of how mch faith a person should have. I will include this update on my blog. Perhaps other people will be drawn to Him!

    I love you Katy and you hang in there, It will get better. He will comfort and soothe your pain.

    With Love
    Andrea

  6. Shari Cucci Says:

    Thank-you for sharing. We pray for you all often and our pray is for complete healing in God’s eyes. You are an inspiration to our family. We know there is a heaven and can hardly wait. What hope we have in Jesus Christ!!!!! Thank-you!
    With love ,
    The Cucci family

  7. Jes Says:

    Hey guys -
    I’m sorry that the pain has been so terrible, but once again…what an amazing experience! I’m so thankful that the Lord has lifted you up once again and allowed you to visit places that the rest of us can only imagine right now! What a blessing and a solace in the midst of this storm.

    I’m praying for the Remicade treatment and I’m anxious to hear how it goes!

    We love you all!
    Jess

  8. Karen Tillman Says:

    Hey Guys,
    I am so glad that the infusion went off without a hitch. PTL for all He has done!! Hope all of you have a restful night.
    Love
    Karen Tillman

  9. Heather Kirkwood Says:

    What else is left to say….grin! I think everyone covered it well. dido. I hope the infusion went well today.

  10. Jes Says:

    Hey Guys!
    Thanks for the quick update on yesterday’s treatment! I’m so thankful that it went well! Does she have to do anymore? Or was that the only one? We love you all and are praying for this Remicade stuff to work powerfully in Katy!

    Jess

  11. Jennifer S. :-) Says:

    Yay for updates!! I’m so glad that the infusion went well. I’ll be praying for its effectiveness and that there won’t be any bad side effects.
    Love and prayers,
    Jen :-)

  12. Heather Kirkwood Says:

    I’m so glad all went smoothly!!! I missed the update….didn’t scroll down far enough - but finally I caught on….grin!

    We continue to pray that all goes smoothly.

  13. Aleah Yunger Says:

    Praise God for medicine and treatment! Glad to hear it went well - the Father answers prayer, for sure! Praying you have a beautiful (though chilly…brr!) day today :)

13 comments:

  1. # Jennifer S. :-) Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 8:49 am e

    Katy,
    This post almost made me cry. I’m not going through half of the things that you are, but I still have my little battles. How encouraging to be reminded again that they are for our good. I’ll continue to pray for the pain management and that the Remicaide treatments will help. Thank you for sharing your special time with us. :-)
    Love and prayers,
    Jen :-)

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  2. # Doris Harriff Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 9:02 am e

    It almost made me cry, too. Katy, I will always hold you up in prayer, and ask the Lord to help you with pain management. I have seen His name glorified through your life, and I’m sure I will continue to see this. May Jesus keep you always in His loving arms!

    Aunt Doris

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  3. # Aleah Yunger Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 10:21 am e

    I stand as a witness to what Christ told you — this blog is changing lives and God is using this to bring people to Himself. Katy, you and your family are a constant example I use for people in times of struggle and in times of pain. You are the true example of a light - a witness - a testament to God’s grace and provision. And yet you are in constant pain… to a world that doesn’t understand the Truth of the Gospel and who struggle with questions about a God that can allow pain and suffering in His world, you shed light on the grace that is actually drawn up in all suffering.

    Psalm 51:8, 10 Let me hear joy and gladness; LET THE BONES THAT YOU HAVE BROKEN REJOICE. Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me.

    God is faithful to break us down… for the purpose of building us up in the right spirit. You are a witness to that! Amazing… I cannot wait to share this with my world.

    ReplyDelete
  4. # Lillian Oliveira Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 12:07 pm e

    Well, Katy, dear, the others “almost cried” and I cried and am still blinking back tears! I had just finished reading it the first time when our church secretary called and asked if I had read “Katy’sBlog”. I didn’t even know she was following it! I told her through my tears, I’m reading it now. Thank you, Jesus! Oh, thank you for answering that plea that came from deep in my heart! Aleah quoted that verse from Psalms 51:8. I wonder if you have heard a shepherd’s clarification of it. Some applies to you, some doesn’t. He said that when there was a little lamb that kept going astray, and leading others into trouble, the shepherd would finally break the front leg bones. Then he would tenderly bind the legs up (they heal so rapidly in lambs or children) and he would carry the little lamb in His bosom all the time. He would lay it down in the best patches of sweet grass to eat, take it to the cool, clear water to drink, sleep with it nestled against him. When the lamb’s legs were healed, it so dearly loved the shepherd who had taken care of it with love, that it stuck close beside him and didn’t wander into trouble ever again. You have not gone astray, but He has a HIGHER purpose in your crushing, the HIGHEST purpose of all - to bring others to Jesus. And He holds you always in His arms. He had to crush my bones for the other reason, and now I so dearly love Him!

    You know, Lord Jesus, it was such an encouragement for You to answer that simple prayer of mine so wonderfully, as you know how I am so concerned for Heather, that I am teaching your Word, and praying that she will believe. You know the prayer I prayed yesterday, binding the Satanic powers that have come from generations of rebels and non-believers in her family, and the reistance I felt, but Your Victory in the end. Then she didn’t come to her lesson last night. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for letting me know what suffering it causes you to be rejected - much more than what I can feel. Please let everyone who reads this pray a pray for Heather, that she will indeed come to the Easter service as she has promised, and, OH, Father, that she may be given the will and the faith to believe!

    And I pray for dear Katy, for Dawn and Paul and Paul Burton, Colin and Jennifer, Dan and Julie, as they bear the burden of the pain close up. May your grace be MORE than sufficient today. May the JOY of Heaven touch each one of them, I pray, Father, in the blessed Name of Jesus, Son of God, Saviour.

    Dear me, there’s a PILE of wet kleenex by my computer. I love you all.

    Aunt Lil

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  5. # andrea russell Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 3:25 pm e

    Yes this is sad to read. But it is uplifting to us. And I agree with everyone, that this blog draws us very close to Jesus. You are a example of how mch faith a person should have. I will include this update on my blog. Perhaps other people will be drawn to Him!

    I love you Katy and you hang in there, It will get better. He will comfort and soothe your pain.

    With Love
    Andrea

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  6. # Shari Cucci Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 5:21 pm e

    Thank-you for sharing. We pray for you all often and our pray is for complete healing in God’s eyes. You are an inspiration to our family. We know there is a heaven and can hardly wait. What hope we have in Jesus Christ!!!!! Thank-you!
    With love ,
    The Cucci family

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  7. # Jes Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 6:59 pm e

    Hey guys -
    I’m sorry that the pain has been so terrible, but once again…what an amazing experience! I’m so thankful that the Lord has lifted you up once again and allowed you to visit places that the rest of us can only imagine right now! What a blessing and a solace in the midst of this storm.

    I’m praying for the Remicade treatment and I’m anxious to hear how it goes!

    We love you all!
    Jess

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  8. # Karen Tillman Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 10:54 pm e

    Hey Guys,
    I am so glad that the infusion went off without a hitch. PTL for all He has done!! Hope all of you have a restful night.
    Love
    Karen Tillman

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  9. # Heather Kirkwood Says:
    April 4th, 2007 at 11:21 pm e

    What else is left to say….grin! I think everyone covered it well. dido. I hope the infusion went well today.

    ReplyDelete
  10. # Jes Says:
    April 5th, 2007 at 6:17 am e

    Hey Guys!
    Thanks for the quick update on yesterday’s treatment! I’m so thankful that it went well! Does she have to do anymore? Or was that the only one? We love you all and are praying for this Remicade stuff to work powerfully in Katy!

    Jess

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  11. # Jennifer S. :-) Says:
    April 5th, 2007 at 10:02 am e

    Yay for updates!! I’m so glad that the infusion went well. I’ll be praying for its effectiveness and that there won’t be any bad side effects.
    Love and prayers,
    Jen :-)

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  12. # Heather Kirkwood Says:
    April 5th, 2007 at 11:14 am e

    I’m so glad all went smoothly!!! I missed the update….didn’t scroll down far enough - but finally I caught on….grin!

    We continue to pray that all goes smoothly.

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  13. # Aleah Yunger Says:
    April 5th, 2007 at 12:19 pm e

    Praise God for medicine and treatment! Glad to hear it went well - the Father answers prayer, for sure! Praying you have a beautiful (though chilly…brr!) day today :)

    ReplyDelete