It has been many years since I stopped writing to these journal pages. Writing
had become such a part of every day life, and it blended in seamlessly to my
routine. It was a way of expressing my gratitude to God for His daily provision
and strength, and it was a witness to His sustaining grace.
Then one day, I
opened the “Family Journal” to write an update and found that a couple of
people had “fun” with the comments on my journal pages overnight. I was already
emotionally exhausted by the years of what seemed like endless doctor visits and
hospitalizations and found someone had written,”it seems like you really enjoy
all this illness.” I broke down and cried over the lie that morning. Nothing
could have been further from the truth. We had watched Kathryn teeter on the
brink of starvation in total despair. Doctors seemed to shrug her off as though
she was just seeking attention until a smart surgeon took over and made a major
repair to her abdomen. Although there were victories, I needed time to stop
writing, grow spiritually, and mend.
I put my writing aside the day I read those
comments and continued forging through another decade of extreme health issues with Qavah and Kathryn. I went to work trying to find ways of teaching Qavah, who
had been diagnosed with an intellectual disorder, and kept praying for miracles
which came in the form of some great children’s therapists.
So here I am again,
posting to the Campbell Family Journal, on the brink of another miracle for
Qavah in Cleveland on May 6. And as I write tonight, I think about how I have grown
tougher skin. All comments are welcome but will be moderated before posted. I
want this to be a daily stop for anyone needing encouragement, or anyone needing
to feel you’ve just read something that has meaning for you in your walk with
God.
I have a song I am clinging to as a reminder that to get through anything,
I will find my victory by standing still before an Almighty God. He will win all
these victories because while I wait, He is making all things new.
Link to the song: He Is Making All Things New
